Bad news: Flimsy Parkins just committed suicide In which Flimsy cannot handle this world anymore
#1
Posted 03 September 2015 - 10:54 AM
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#2
Posted 03 September 2015 - 09:10 PM
I never knew him, but I know asgromo liked him a lot, and this just makes me feel really sad. What an awful thing to happen.
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#3
Posted 04 September 2015 - 02:27 AM
Somehow all this made me feel compelled to read the chat logs.. I mean, since he seemed to want people to (but maybe not people like me). I'm really sorry if anyone in the logs feel like I invaded their privacy in doing this, I guess I didn't really know that's what I'd be reading at the onset. The sad thing is I feel most of what he said wasn't too smart or weird for me to understand at all.
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Exophase can what Rubi-cant.
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#4
Posted 04 September 2015 - 04:01 AM
#5
Posted 04 September 2015 - 09:27 PM
Obituary
Exophase, on 03 September 2015 - 08:27 PM, said:
asgromo says it's no problem
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#6
Posted 04 September 2015 - 09:51 PM
Exophase all he really wanted was for people to understand him and where he was coming from, so there's no issue whatsoever in his hypothetical mind or anyone else's with people reading what he put up. His friends are (mostly (sort of)) unconcerned with privacy, and no one in the group he quoted on that page has a problem that they've mentioned.
Thanks so much for the concern you guys : (
If he did have an influence on you or make a connection with you that you'd like to honor, you can write or draw etc. any kinda item that can be displayed on a wall, as suggested in the obituary that Lachesis linked above, and mail it to the address listed. And if it so happens you can make it to the wake, feel free, just RSVP. (source: Joan Parkins)
not to be morbid, but if you're curious, here's my final conversation with him: https://dl.dropboxus...ith%20jack.html can't say it makes as artful an epilogue as was the rest of the story, but it's there
finally, jsyk, i'm a mess, and the mzx community is lovely people. thanks for being that
This post has been edited by asgromo: 04 September 2015 - 09:53 PM
#7
Posted 05 September 2015 - 02:21 PM
#8
Posted 05 September 2015 - 07:10 PM
That is, perhaps, the point.
My condolences to everyone involved. The world is noticably lesser without him.
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#9
Posted 05 September 2015 - 08:18 PM
#10
Posted 05 September 2015 - 10:11 PM
I don't really know what to say... I've lost a lot of people in my life, but not like this.
Take care of yourself, and give yourself time to grieve... it's important.
#11
Posted 16 September 2015 - 06:16 AM
He was crazy, but he distinguished himself from the rest of the crowd easily by how ultimately friendly he was. For example, years ago when #rawr found out I'm kind of a stocky dude, amongst the shoddily-concocted jeers he quipped, "You subsist on a diet of fatty hams!".
I didn't talk to him very much later on. He did mention the battles he had in his mind and how they left him weary. I felt helpless listening to that. But he only talked about that rarely, and the topic varied from gaming to music to doings in the community and otherwise. Wish I could say hi to him again.
My condolences to asgromo. Hope you're feeling a little better by now.
#12
Posted 30 August 2016 - 10:07 AM
I feel really bad for him. Yeah, I knew him back when I was around z2, but I wasn't his friend. I'm pretty sure that he thought that I was an idiot (justifiable, since I had very bad social skills and poor impulse control back then). He did like my voice acting, though.
He must have used his sense of humor to deal with the fact that he (supposedly) a lot smarter than others around him (something that I can kind of relate to, although back then hardly anyone thought that I was smart). And when that exhausted itself, he did what he did. Either that, or he was just bored with life. I get that way, sometimes.
Was what he did foolish in my eyes? Sure it was. Then again, I have no idea what drove him to that; all that I can do is just guess, and that doesn't lead you anywhere.
I've experienced death in my life a lot. My best friend in high school strangled himself for sexual pleasure when he was 17, ended up in a vegetative coma and then died the day after Christmas. I had another friend that was murdered over a girl he no longer cared about when he was 20. My own mother died four years ago from Ovarian cancer; that was, pardon my French, really fucking terrible. A good friend of mine from graduate school got in a car accident over two years ago, and I found out only seven months later. Another friend who knew that friend almost died from a heart attack at the age of 29 because he drank too much (fortunately, he is better now). I've also known many suicides, and one of my former jobs revolved around gathering data from obituaries.
At 32, I'm well acquainted with death. I think about my own death almost every day, and perhaps what is worse, how meaningless my life might currently be. But I like myself and I like the part of the world that I live in, so I don't think that I'm going to go anywhere, although death can strike at anytime.
What is even more creepy is that I just discovered this almost exactly a year after he did that. Nuts. Perhaps he wanted me to see this? I don't know; I do believe in God, but I can't say anything more.
Coincidentally, drac0 died from an overdose about nine months prior; didn't know that, either. I'm not surprised about that, though, and I only said so much as three sentences to him or so and as such I cannot comment further.
Also strange how I just got done reading 'The Savage God' by A. Alvarez. It goes into the poetic and general history of suicide.
Kind of weird how the communities have gotten to the stage where members can realistically die and never come back.
#13
Posted 04 September 2016 - 06:53 AM
I still think that Flimsy was pretty awesome, even though to tell everyone the truth, I never met Flimsy personally, But the thing is that Flimsy will be missed as both a Fellow ZZTer and an all around coolsauce person!
This post has been edited by smilymzx: 04 September 2016 - 06:57 AM
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#14
Posted 05 September 2016 - 07:35 AM
Ando, on 30 August 2016 - 06:07 AM, said:
There was an MZXer from the 90s who died in a car accident sometime around 2002-2003. I'm sure there have been others. It's jarring to think about.
I had a best friend in elementary school whom I later had a falling out with.. a while ago I tried looking him up only to find out he died some years back. I wish I tried to contact him sooner.
But I haven't yet had to deal with anyone I personally know well committing suicide.. that's not something people would normally consider themselves lucky for but at this point I think it is, and it may well just be a matter of time before that changes. I'm sure that's a very harsh thing to deal with.
"The fact that I say I've one of the best, is called honesty." -Akwende
"Megazeux is not ment to be just ASCII, it is ANSI!" - T-bone6
"I hate it when you get all exo on me." - emalkay
Exophase can what Rubi-cant.
exoware is ware ur ware is exoware
ps. not loking 4 new membrs kthx
#16
Posted 07 September 2016 - 10:38 PM
On the topic of death, I was a pallbearer for a childhood friend of mine back in April. Use to hang out tons when we were younger, but we kind of drifted apart when he got into alcohol/drugs, and I got into MegaZeux and MMOs, and I didn't want to get into drinking and all that at the time because there was a bit of a chance of me becoming something better once. Kind of wanted to hang out with him again, since he wasn't necessarily a bad person, just fucked up and had issues with his mother. Died of an overdose on heroine, and I think there was some Fentanyl in him too.
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#17
Posted 08 September 2016 - 01:06 AM
watch 'em all!!1
#18
Posted 08 September 2016 - 01:34 AM
This post has been edited by asgromo: 08 September 2016 - 02:10 AM
#19
Posted 11 September 2016 - 07:47 PM
Old-Sckool, on 07 September 2016 - 11:38 PM, said:
On the topic of death, I was a pallbearer for a childhood friend of mine back in April. Use to hang out tons when we were younger, but we kind of drifted apart when he got into alcohol/drugs, and I got into MegaZeux and MMOs, and I didn't want to get into drinking and all that at the time because there was a bit of a chance of me becoming something better once. Kind of wanted to hang out with him again, since he wasn't necessarily a bad person, just fucked up and had issues with his mother. Died of an overdose on heroine, and I think there was some Fentanyl in him too.
Damn, heroin addiction is rough... It ravaged a lot of well-to-do communities here on Long Island; my ex's brother for instance was an addict, as was a number of people I went to school with.
#20
Posted 15 September 2016 - 12:01 AM
#21
Posted 02 June 2017 - 01:00 PM
If tears could build a stairwell and memories a lane,
we'd ZAP a path to heaven and bring you back again.
If death were nothing more than just a dark and winding path,
We'd +give a million torches and we'd light your way right back.
If Charon's ferry worked both ways if one could pay his fee,
We'd +give a million gems so that your face again we'd see.
If life was like game where you could simply be revived,
We'd +give you all the health you'd need to bring you back alive.
We loved your games and comics, your rants and insights too,
But most of all we loved the one who made them...and that's you.
This post has been edited by Dark-Star: 02 June 2017 - 01:03 PM